General decline
Sleep depravatrion is taking its toll. Since Andre was born 11 months ago I've been looking forward to the day when things get back to normal. They haven't got there yet. As a matter of fact, it looks like this is it. A steady stream of interupted sleep which masks itself as restful at 8am. But waking up at 12, 2, 4, 5am, even if only for 5 or 10 minutes is taking a physical toll. I noticed that I now have trouble seeing things that are at a distance, they are blurry or double. At first I figured I just needed glasses. Everyone else in my family wears glasses; at 31 maybe it was my time to get some. I forget things often. While I am home most every day with my son, I still feel that life is hectic. In order to see patients in the evening I often must meet my wife at the train station and drive directly to the yoga room (astoriayoga.com). Then I come home and eat, wash Dre with my wife, and go to sleep. Granted, most people on this earth have it a lot tougher than me, but I miss my faculties.
I haven't been an avid reader in my life, but over the past few years I''ve been making an effort to read more, and I've opened up to a world that for whatever reason was not interesting to me before. I read the Lord of the rings series, 1984, The Bean Trees and others, I've been loving it. At this point though, I feel like reading has become to much work, mentally. My brain is bothered and confused by these words and plots that are too much of a bother to follow. The internet and TV are more my pace.
Basically I am getting dumber every day. My wife is encouraging me to read newspapers every day, which I am getting to. Maybe when Andre gets his own room and sleeps from like 8pm to 8am my faculties will come back. In the mean time my only hope is to juice up on herbs and get some more sleep.
Thue dumbage marches on.
posted by Chiman @ 6:20 PM
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The answers to christian and eastern philosophies are found in hindu culture, which is the root of all civilization. The purist of each of these cultures form a trinity of QI that permeates mans' perception of life and forms his TAO (path of spiritual evolution).
Christianity teaces humility, sacrifice, compassion, and faith.
The I-Ching (book of changes) and Confucius teach us how to interact with everchanging society and nature. The I-Ching tells the story of how everything is interelated and effected by these unseen relations. The Tao Te Ching (the masters path of integrity) teaches us to seperate ourselves (spiritually)from the "world of affairs" (spiritually inferior mans egotistical existence driven by the senses and emotion). This seperation is mainly achieved by meditation (the emptying of the mind). In the hollow-void mind the spirit can be heard as intuitive-emotional truth. The TE CHING (superior man) also references Qigong ("life-breathe"and "work").
Qigong or Chi-kung teaches us the importance of our physicalself as the vessel of development and teaches us what are bodies should do for us and how to retrain them.
This is also the purpose of yoga which brings us to India. Indian saints teach us about the fabric of existence and our interaction with god thru it. "Kriya" yoga is india's greatest gift to mans evolution as it can bring in one lifetime the awareness it takes to understand god and existence. This understanding usually comes after 1 million years of consciousness (thus many re-incarnations are usually needed to achieve this). Indian culture is also aware of the delusions of maya taked about in the Tao Te Ching and the duality of existence talked about in the I-ching. The indian masters also tell stories of the three wiseman being indian and teaching jesus for 15 years. There is also a very different understanding of life, death, and resurrection. The infinite faces of the circle, from any point inside you can see everything else in the circle , but from any point on the outside 99% is blocked by the 1%. We must look inside to find unity.
p.s. when your emotions have knotted your mind into submission,you must release them, i ball my frustration into a breath, the release it as the vile growl that it is, sing along to my song "Death Perception" and release all the lifetimes of pain and abuse. then when your emotions are still, try to understand that you are not the violent volcano emotion. That may be this, this may be That, but , I AM.
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